When the MUSIC meets the LYRICS

God you're amazing.  I thank You for continuously refining me in different ways. Thank you for teaching me the right priorities and right attitude towards living. I sometimes question the peace I feel despite the actual turmoil of the situation. But by Your grace, I'm comforted and I'm blessed.

I watched the Sunday service today, and it was about Hagar. I’ve heard this story a few times before... but God spoke to me in a different way today. Scripture reading: (Genesis 16 and 21) I was moved with the realization of how deeply God cares for us, His children — regardless of race, background and status. He cared for Hagar when she was an Egyptian and a slave. He blessed Ishmael, even if the “seed” of the covenant will not come from him but from Isaac — the seed being the Messiah, which is Jesus Christ — in which all mankind will be blessed. God still blessed Ishmael and he became the father of the Arab nations. We can see how God has blessed Ishmael’s descendants until now. Today’s message gave me a totally different perspective and favor. I realized that God loves everyone. No  one has monopoly on His blessings. He loves you, He loves me. He loves the Arabs, the Hindus, the pagans, the murderers — all sinners and all humankind. He loves and cares for us all — deeply. God al...

I’m just letting my mind run its course tonight. Today is one of those days that I would want to make sense... I’m just glad that God impressed in my heart to just be with family today.  There are so many things running in my head... and they’re just running.  I’m honestly grateful beyond measure. I’m experiencing so much grace from God, as well as my family. I’m enjoying the presence of my family so much, too — from the kids to the new kitten. My family and me received, is receiving endless blessings in so many ways. Praise You Father for all that you’ve done! You are faithful, loving, gracious...  There’s a couple of things though — one is my business, the other is my husband (or the lack of it). I’m thinking of how to grow my business by maximizing the tools, videos and corporate events. I totally understand that a certain level of personal touch and relationship is important, but I seriously want to grow leaders that are self-motivated, empowered and productive. I’m a...

*singing Francesca Battistelli’s “The Breakup Song” Was it early this morning when I woke up? Or was it when I was about to sleep last night? Between those times. I realized how “fear” has been in my heart all this time. Especially when it comes to relationship.  I always daydream about being “in-love”, being pursued, getting married… but somewhere along the daydream, I stop myself or just allow myself up to a certain level of “kilig”. It dawned to me that I fear getting a repeat of my previous relationships — all failed. So even in my imaginations, I don’t allow myself to be “too involved” in case I get hurt.  I fear being rejected so much… I doubted the possibility of God’s best loving me “till death” knowing all my flaws and imperfections, making my previous failed relationships as reference to this.  Then a thought just came now… How could I experience God’s best if the previous relationships didn’t end? How can I make them as “the” reference when Chri...

The LORD has allowed me to enjoy an overflowing amount of comfort, joy and even luxury. But by His faithfulness and grace, He is also polishing and refining my heart from pride and attachment to money, fame and self-righteousness. Truly, I AM NOTHING WITHOUT CHRIST. (John 15:5 - "... apart from Me you can do nothing.") I used to say those words feeling and thinking I know what it means. But upon close checking my own heart and self -- I realized how selfish and prideful I am. How corrupt my own heart is. How deceitful. How I blame, how I envy and how I'm embittered with certain things and circumstances. I felt ashamed. My initial reaction was to deny. I want to justify myself. Then I realized that I prayed for the Holy Spirit to reveal these things to me, and I'm just experiencing another answered prayer. All the more I realized how unworthy I am. It's so hard to face this. But I praise God for His faithfulness. That despite the shame, I feel His loving c...

I was praying for productivity so much these days, that I was consumed with the thought of it and getting frustrated with the thought that I'm not getting the output that I desired. When out of my intentional search, I stumbled into this article: http://www.livingfreeindeed.com/2017/06/27/what-the-proverbs-31-woman-teaches-us-about-productivity/ I was shookt.  Proverbs 31:10-31 has always been a favorite go to verse. I've meditated on it, discussed it with friends and has been so inspired so much by it. When all of a sudden, this article made me re-read it with a totally different perspective. Realization. The Proverbs 31 woman is not Godly because she is productive, but she is productive because she is GODLY. And I had it all wrong. I praise God for this article. I just realized how self-absorbed I was. How blinded I was. How wrong I could possible be. I praise the Lord for the reminder.  All this time. My goals, my intentions, my “productivit...