When the MUSIC meets the LYRICS

I remembered Jacob as I personally wrestled with God last weekend. Friday, a day in my life when all my priorities shifted.  I had my TVS done and the results are in my hands. All my dreams of being a mother died the moment the doctor said “this is a biggie”. The cyst in my right ovary grew from from 9cm to 15cm. Plus, plus adenomyomas here and there. The cutoff for surgery is only 7cm. I knew right there and then that surgery is 99% on the way. This wasn’t a first. I had my first cystectomy in my left ovaries in 2009. Surgery this time would me removal of almost everything. Meaning, my hopes and dreams of being a mother — poof! Gone. I wrestled with God. Because the desire to be a mother is so real, that I held on to these thoughts like glass in my hands. Unknowingly, it’s becoming an idol in my life. I ended up not trusting God, but putting my own desires a priority. Clouding my thoughts and messing up my common sense all along. #GGv1 July 26, 2017

When I made the “Out came the song” blog, I didn’t have You in mind. I had several people who took my fancy and made an outlet for all the romcom plots that run in my head, and I realized it was You who captured that frame that gave me that feeling — a sense of security I didn’t knew before. But due to the limitations of my personal understanding, I interpreted it otherwise. As I get to know You more and more, you surprise me in so many ways — I’m usually left in awe. #Jesus

Oh well, then I could be wrong. I could be wrong all along. But God has been very clear to me all the time -- HE has me covered. I could always be wrong, but He is sovereign and He is always right. That's my comfort.