A Tiny Flicker

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Last night, God reminded me that I'm a professional.

And by His grace, a clearly laid out plan came into mind. There are several considerations, circumstances aren't perfect -- but I'm going to pursue what needs to be done.

First, I need to learn the team business system. I know the basics, yes -- but how they run it -- no, I don't. Aside from that, I've been disengaged for awhile -- my skills are rusty, and I need a good sharpening. Once I get a refresher, I'll go and master the presentations by doing it for the teammates. My goal is to finish 100 presentations as soon as possible -- reassessing along the way.

Next, I'll have to master the onboarding. Then I'll move forward from there.

Thinking about these ignited a fire that I've been craving for! I've probably been focusing on the wrong things all these time. Regardless, God is sovereign. He's in control -- and I'm a work in progress.

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